Thanks for all the good thoughts and wishes…
I am doing better after my meltdown on Thursday. It helps too that the spotting has stopped (knock on wood, fingers crossed) and I have only seen prometrium and whatever else white goo seems to be coming out of me. Phew.
But I know I am not going to be able to really relax and actually believe I am pregnant until the ultrasound. I’m scared and nervous and worried.
I want this so badly and I have no reason to think it won’t work but I’ve been there before. So please forgive me for being the whiny worried bitch I will be…
June 9, 2008 at 9:57 am
When is your ultrasound?
June 9, 2008 at 10:07 am
Whine away…it’s your blog. When is the u/s scheduled? Sorry if you had that in a previous post and I missed it.
June 9, 2008 at 10:16 am
No forgiveness necessary — totally, totally understood! Hang in there, lady…
June 9, 2008 at 10:21 am
Worried, yes. Whiny bitch? No. And if you are feeling a bit whiny and bitchy, I think you’re more than entitled to it, which we all are. I’m echoing the first two commenters – when is your u/s?
June 9, 2008 at 11:17 am
I haven’t scheduled an u/s yet. I assume after tomorrow’s blood draw to check prog/estrogen I will set one up. I want one asap, though!
June 9, 2008 at 12:05 pm
No forgiveness required, you have every right to be whiny, and that does not make you a bitch.
I’m pulling for you, we all are.
June 9, 2008 at 12:08 pm
No need to apologize. We’ve all either been there or will be there. I think as someone with fertility issues it takes a big chunk of the pregnancy to finally feel like you’ll get a baby in the end.
June 9, 2008 at 1:39 pm
I totally get where your head is right now Jen.
June 9, 2008 at 1:49 pm
The wait for the first u/s completely and absolutely stinks. It is all consuming. I wish that I had wonderful advice for you, but I was on edge the entire time too. And I had no history of loss to contend with. So you know what, go ahead and whine!
June 9, 2008 at 4:20 pm
If it helps…I’ll be 17 weeks completed tomorrow and have had “white goo” since day 1!
June 9, 2008 at 4:43 pm
Keeping my fingers crossed! Good luck, I can’t wait to hear the updates!
June 9, 2008 at 6:06 pm
I feel like the whole IVF process is nothing but a series of waits. Waiting to get started, waiting for retrieval, waiting for fert reports, waiting for transfer, the dreaded 2ww, waiting for beta 2, waiting for first u/s. Every bit of it sucks, and you have every right to whine and worry … our job is to hold your hand to help your through all the crappy waits!!! I’m so anxious for your first u/s! Sending hugs!
June 9, 2008 at 6:07 pm
Ummm, whiny bitch is the last phrase I would use to describe you. You have every right to worry and freak out though. Can’t our bodies just be nice to us and give up on the stupid spotting?
June 9, 2008 at 6:08 pm
sorry, that last Anon comment was me. Oops.
June 10, 2008 at 2:59 pm
You are allowed to be as whiney and bitchy as you want with all you’ve gone through. But for the record, I don’t think you’re being either whiney or bitchy! I hope you get a great ultrasound and yay for not having bleeding!
June 10, 2008 at 4:21 pm
whine, worry and bitch, you have ever right!
June 10, 2008 at 4:51 pm
You aren’t being a whiny bitch at all. Just scared and concerned like anyone would be. Thinking of you and hoping that ultrasound comes quick!
June 10, 2008 at 7:15 pm
Better to whine and bitch (not that you were) and let it out than hold it in… Pregnancy is a pretty scary and nerve-wracking thing after losses. Looking forward to hearing about an awesome ultrasound!
June 11, 2008 at 11:44 am
who wouldn’t be freaked after all you’ve been thru!!?!? only a freak i tell you! though, i have every belief that we will see good things at the u/s.
oxoxo