Placenta previa…

It seems to always be something with me I think.

So today’s 1st trimester screening went well. The tech said the baby looked good, had a great heartbeat of 155 and two arms and two legs.

The only downer?

The placenta is covering the cervix.

Awesome.

She said that it often clears itself up as the uterus grows but there always is that chance it remains.

Of course, I only had the appointment for the scan. No appointment with a doctor, so tomorrow she will call me after looking at the scan to determine if I need anything beyond pelvic rest, etc.

Has anyone had this before and go away? Or have it and successfully deliver? I’m trying not to worry about it. I am only 12 weeks, but still. I worry. I haven’t had spotting, except for the day of the pap, which is normal for me. Uggh. I thought once I reached this magical threshold I’d feel a little more confident about the pregnancy. Maybe that only really happens at 40 weeks…

But the happy news is the bub is starting to look like a baby.

MIA…

I’ve been a horribly bad blogger as of late… Last week, I took a vacation from work, which also meant I barely touched the computer.

So now I’m back and struggling to get everything done before deadline tomorrow.

Otherwise, things are good on the belly front. It still doesn’t seem real but I’ve no reason not to think this isn’t going to happen. It doesn’t mean I still don’t cross my fingers but… 

And I promise to have a more interesting, meaningful post soon.

Anticlimatic

Today was my first OBGYN appointment. I think I could have faked being pregnant and gone in there. No ultrasound, no heartbeat. Granted, I just went Thursday to CCRM so maybe that was their reasoning. I had just wished I got to see the little one again.

But even more exciting is they think I have a bladder infection. Woo hoo. Mind you, I’ve been peeing a lot but none of the typical UTI burniness. The nurse said it was VERY common. She too mentioned that my vagina looked good (as in no reason for infection there, must be bladder), my uterus is about the size expected and by their little spin-the-due-date circle I’m 10 weeks 3 days. By my calculations I’m 10 weeks exact. Hmm. I guess everyone has a different method.

Overall, it was a disappointing day. Although I heart the nurse practicioner.  She was the one I met with right before all the abnormal pap stuff – when I was thinking we’d start right away on IVF. But she was so happy for us. She gave me a big hug at the end of the appointment. But still, I wanted to see the baby. Grr. Now I wait for another two weeks, when I go in for the *optional* 1st trimester ultrasound screening.

Ok. Back to chugging water. Yay.

And I’m really not complaining too much, I just expected angels heralding my arrival and ultrasounds galore!

Best Ultrasound No. 2

I had an ultrasound today at CCRM, which is so fancy now they have a kiosk selling lattes, sandwiches and snacks…

But that wan’t the big news.

The BIG news was we heard the heartbeat today.

It was beyond wonderful. The little heart was pumping away with 167 beats per minute.

And I’m shocked at the changes we saw today (9w2d). Our little blob is looking like a baby. It was amazing. And our tech said our baby looked like a “linebacker” in there and was measuring several days ahead…

This might really be real… I’m in awe…

Down with meds…

So today I went in for what could be my last progesterone/estrogen check. Pretty crazy. Well, I think it is considering they have been weaning me off of them and I don’t think either level is very high.

I think this is just the worrywart in me coming out. You know, the one who still obsessively checks the soreness of her boobs, looks at all the veins on her arms, chest and hips/pelvis area to see if they are still visible. And who worries when the right arm veins fade in and out. It happens all the time. I’m not sure why I obsess. But I do.

But I do have to say I am feeling better about this actually working. I went for the last blood draw the day after my little spotting scare. And both my levels went up. So in my untrained medical opinion something is still growing and going on. It made me feel better, considering too, I was decreasing the amount of meds. So now I am just hoping the levels have continued to jump up on no patches and a single supp.

And I hate feeling/thinking/whatevering that this won’t work. I just need to be the nonIVFer who is blissfully unawares of all that could go wrong and only what can go right.